I feel homeless. I don’t really know how to explain it. We just moved about an hour away from where we have been living for the last 2 1/2 years. It didn’t seem like it would be that big of a deal.
Things just feel different. That knot in your stomach you have when you just want to go home and relax in your own room, your own bed, with your own things around you. I still have the room, the bed, and the things but can’t seem to shake that knot when I go home at night. Maybe it’s the getting ready in the morning and not having things where they “should be”, maybe it’s not yet taking a bath to relax (because I am weird about things for a while and can’t get over the fact yet that someone else was using that shower…ick…even though it has been thoroughly cleaned), maybe it’s the one level instead of split level, it seems like it is a multitude of things that all add up to a homesick heart. Silly, I know.
I miss going to the places I would always go. It’s basically changing my whole life. No Kneaders….where do I get to satisfy my craving for a great key lime tart? No Williams Sonoma 5 minutes from our house located very conveniently right next to two of my other favorite places; Bath & Body Works, and Bajio. It’s the not knowing just the right place to go to get so& so a birthday present, that perfect thing to eat, the ingredient I am missing, or a great place to browse for ideas.
I miss going to lunch with my Grandma and mom. I miss being able to pop over to my mom’s house whenever I needed someone. I grew up close to where I was living and sometimes saw old friends, went shopping and dining in the same areas, and just knew my way around. Now I am trying to figure out what places are around here. I also don’t know anyone. I’m not a student, and the only people that I talk to in my line of work are people who don’t really want to talk to me much. Basically, I’m lonely.
November 14th, 2007 at 9:43 pm
It’s always hard getting used to somewhere new, but I am sure that it will get better. Plus, you do have lots of fun stores and restaurants around you…think TGI Fridays! I can’t wait to see your new place Friday!
December 1st, 2007 at 3:01 am
We miss you too. But you do have a cool new place there.
December 11th, 2007 at 10:41 pm
I know it doesn’t help at the end of the semester, right before the holidays, new job, new house, new school for your son. You rock for being as good as you are. that’s a lot to have on your plate.
Besides, I insist that a large part of being beautiful is being a good person despite life’s issues. And you’ve got that in spades. I luv ya man. hang in there.
Keep thinking, New Year, new issues, new resolve. You’re gonna be fine. And I’m gonna come see you soon anyway. I’ve got some separation anxiety myself. LOL